Trip to GJ

This month we were brave and made a trip over to Grand Junction to visit my family.  I am not crazy enough (yet!) to go by myself, so my mom and grandma came over the day before and we caravaned back.  I lucked out and got just the babies, and they totally slept the whole way over.  It was amazing!  I got to listen to any music I wanted (not Cars or Madagascar movies.)  The trip back was not nearly so fun, as Jaxson for some reason has all of the sudden decided that a bottle is the yuckiest thing ever and how dare you try to give me that instead of the boob!  So, that being said, a trip which should be 4.5 hours in the summertime took about 8...with screaming babies....with grumpy parents....who have to listen to kid movies over and over and over.  We did have a great time when we were visiting my family though.  We gourged ourselves on fresh fruits like Palisade peaches and watermelon.  It was busy busy seeing family almost everyday, but the boys enjoyed playing with their cousins and were totally wiped at the end of every day. 

 

Getting the Grandmas' bed all warmed up!

 

 All ready for our trip!  Doesn't Zane look thrilled?

The biggest hit of the trip was getting to drive Grandpa's lawnmower.  Tiernan actually seemed to do a pretty good job and was so excited when Grandpa let him steer.  I think it probably contributed more to Grandpa's hair loss, but secretly I think he loved it too!

I'm sure Grandpa had fun trying to help steer the lawnmower and balance Cameron on his lap.

The boys loved digging in the gravel of my parents' landscaping.  They used all the equipment to dig holes and build things in the rocks.  I think they spent almost everyday all day long outside.

This picture is so fun of some of the cousins.  On the far left is Addie, my cousin's daughter. Libby was so excited to have a girl to play with!

Love this picture of Grandma snuggling Zane

My parents have this giant water feature/pond in their backyard.  I spend most of my time being worried someone is going to drown and my mom spends most of the time yelling at them to get out of it.  I'm still not sure what they were thinking putting it in.  But I guess when you don't have tiny people there most of the time, it's not that big of a deal. 

Cameron was not quite sure at first about putting his feet in the "ribber"

Yes, this is in their backyard.  Isn't is beautiful?

I took this picture right after we got back from GJ.  The babies were so excited to be out of their carseats.  The rolled over right away and found each other and started biting each others' hands. 

Hey there!

3 months

I feel like things are starting to settle down a bit.  The twins have been great sleepers for the past month or so-that has been amazing!  They are in that golden age of baby-dom where they are just super content to look around at the world and are happy just to sit on your lap or when anyone (anyone, anyone??) will take the time to talk to them.  Tiernan especially loves trying to make them smile and giggle.  He is such a great big brother. 

I've been struggling a lot with mommy guilt.  I'm sure this will be a on-going battle.  I feel bad because the babies really don't get cuddled alot just because there are two of them, and since most of my day is consumed by feeding and changing them, the few moments that I have when I'm not holding them are spent trying to meet the needs of the older boys.  And, oh yeah, making meals, doing laundry, etc. etc. (etc etc etc etc!!!)  Plus, Tiernan is getting really good at saying things to make me feel even worse, like, "Mommy I don't want you to [feed burp rock] the babies!  I want some special time just with you!"  Most of my day is spent saying things like "Just a minute...you have to be patient...hang on a bit..."  It's hard not to feel like I'm failing most of the time.      

Anyway, enough Debbie Downer talk.  Here are a few newer pictures of my sweet boys, to remind me that it's all worth it!

Zane is on the left

Jaxson

Zane

They are getting so long and chubbier-when I've stood on the scale with them at home Zane is 15 lbs. and Jaxson is 13 lbs.  They've nearly tripled their birth weights. 

"Well hello!"  They are so funny because most of the time it seems like they are completely unaware of each other. But then I'll turn them on their sides to look at one another and they get so excited and start smiling and talking to each other.  I think they're already plotting against me! 

July so far...

Well the world looks a whole lot different when you've had 6 hours of continuous sleep every night I decided.  I don't think you really realize just how exhausted you are until you wake up the morning after a "full" nights sleep and it's amazing how much better you feel!  The babies started regularly sleeping through the night a few weeks ago, and that has revolutionized my life!  Right now they typically go to bed around 8 pm (same time as the big boys!) and will sleep until between 5 and 6 AM.  I don't even remember the big boys sleeping that well, so it's been amazing.  Just last night we had to put them in their own cribs for the first time because they were getting flipped around in their sleep, and kicking each other in the head and waking each other up.  I was a little bit sad to separate them, and they seemed sooo tiny by themselves in their individual beds.

The big boys have been a hand-full lately.  I've been struggling a lot with mommy guilt because I just can't play with them like I used to be able to.  There just isn't enough of me to go around!  And since they are still so young, they are just not super independent yet.  As a result there is a lot of fighting and naughtiness at my house right now; I think to get any kind of attention.  Plus, it's been so blasted hot that they really haven't been able to play outside much this summer.

It's a good thing I only take pictures of them when they are cute and happy, so when I look back at these pictures later I will have hopefully completely forgotten how absolutely INSANE this time of life was....     



I need to take some time (time, what is that??) to look for old pictures of these two laying down together so we can see how much they've grown!

We were are outside they are usually in swim suits playing in the pool (or naked as you have seen.) They have loved playing with the bubble machine lately.  This picture shows me how tall and thin Tiernan has gotten-he looks more and more like a little boy and not so much like a toddler/baby anymore :(

As always, a little ham-he loves the camera

A favorite pastime at our house is wrestling. 

 It almost always ends in tears when someone gets too rough. 

CHEESE!!

Rockin' the CSU gear

I've been a little addicted to Instagram lately...

Proud big brother

They look so grown up here-when did that happen??  They love riding in Poppa's pick up out on the farm mostly because they don't have to ride in car seats.  Please don't call CPS on me-I promise it's just on the fields (or at least that's what they tell me!)

LOVE LOVE LOVE this picture of my four sweet peas.  I'm just amazing no one is crying and everyone was looking at the camera!

Both of these are Zane....

Jaxson-again, addicted to Instragram....

The above picture is Zane, and the one below is Tiernan-well, what do you think??

June 2012

Here are a bunch of random pictures from the month of June:

So this is going to sound completely insane-quite possible given my current state of being, but the twins are both pretty easy babies.  I'm pretty sure because our house is SO crazy 99.9% of the time and I'm so busy running around helping everyone that they've had to (1) learn that they don't get picked up every single time they cry, and (2) I feel like crying is a constant state in our house, so I'm becoming more and more immune to it's powers.  In any case, they are usually pretty content for now to just hang out in their bouncy seats and look around. 

Tiernan is a proud big brother!  He recently has started asking more and more to hold the babies, and everywhere we go he wants to show off "my baby/twin brothers."  "C'mon, wanna see 'em??"  Here he is holding Jaxson.

In June they both started looking forward, rather than to the side....

Love this black and white photo I snagged of them

Ethan's parents have been letting the big boys come to the farm more often now to give us a little reprieve.  It's amazing how now I feel like "just" having the twins is easy!  Tiernan and Cameron love getting to sit in all the equipment with Grandpa Cozzens.

I think some of my favorite pictures of all my boys is when they are sleeping-and when these two are sleeping at the same time it's a miracle so I had to document it!

I think Zane's face in this one is so sweet-you can tell he's really trying to look around at something.

Woohoo!  Matching outfits!  Another miracle!

It's amazing how already their little personalities are coming out!  Zane is usually SOOO easy-he will just hang out forever just looking around.  He is very relaxed and very happy.  The only times he cries are when he's hungry or tired.  He reminds me of Cameron so much sometimes because he makes the funniest faces!

We're rarely able to go anywhere (I'm not brave enough yet!), so the big boys have been spending a lot of time playing in the backyard in the pool and sprinklers.  Here they are nudey patootie-I tried to censor it for you!

I'm so glad they've started smiling-love those sweet baby smiles!

Jaxson right now is a kid of extremes.  His cry doesn't build at all-you immediately know when he's upset about something.  But, he has a HUGE grin and has recently started to giggle.  Here is his not amused face.  In June, this is pretty much what they did: Zane would look around and Jaxson would give you the stare down. 

One day we were at Target and I was trying on sunglasses.  I don't ever buy expensive ones because the boys always confiscate them and they get broken (or, I set them down somewhere and they get lost...etc etc) Cameron picked out the pink heart ones-hmmmmmm